What's Been Here All Along

It's incredible what's become aware to me recently. I'm noticing so much more things now than before. But I have a retrospective view, so I'm realizing that all of these things were always there. I just never knew, but it doesn't mean that it wasn't there.

I didn't think I was attractive, so I never noticed when other people did. I'm noticing it now. It's amazing how enlightening self-awareness can be. I've always believed that I'm unique, different, and memorable because I feel like I contrast from other people. I don't mean it in a cocky way, but it's the truth. Although I believed this, I never really knew this. So I was always so shocked when people remembered me and talk about me like I've made such an impression.

I feel like external forces, as it usually does in my case, had to be shifted drastically in order for me to look within myself. That's what led to this higher awareness, but it's the feedback from others that are making what I know more real. I feel like I have this muted, soft energy I'm releasing that people are responding to. I'm touched by the people I'm attracting into my life, but I want to learn how to brighten up on my own light and see what others feel internally without the necessary presence of others. It's still nice knowing, though, that people care about me, think about me, feel that I've made an impression in their lives, and that they find me an attractive.