Emotions Outside of my Realm

I feel like I'm not feeling what I should feel because I'm protected from it by an invisible bubble. It's the best analogy I can come up with. I feel a hint of mild depression and weakening resistance. I know it's coming from me, but it feels external. It's weird. Maybe my subconscious is trying to protect me from the overwhelming emotions I would be exposed to by sheltering me from it. I don't know what to make of it. I guess I want to be aware of it because so many of my personal issues are more ingrained in me than I've originally realized. It may sometimes be apparent to others, but it isn't to me. I may have felt it at one point, but it becomes like background noise. Something I should be aware of just becomes something I learn to ignore or cope with when I shouldn't. So I want to not necessarily focus on these feelings but be aware that they're there.