Death Card

Do I really take my horoscope and daily tarot card to a serious degree? No, but I do find it interesting and quite potentially insightful. After all, it's all about how we interpret it, right? Today I drew the death card, which frightens most people. It's never done that for me because I'm open-minded, but I also draw on my own experiences. It's not that I haven't seen death, but death comes in many forms. It's also how I perceive death.

Being Japanese I grew up in a culture that believes in life after death. I remember my friend Yoshi's mother passed away when I was eight, and I tried to comfort my mother by reassuring her that she just moved to Heaven because she's a good person. I remember my mom slapped, and it was the first time I became truly frightened of her. But I honestly didn't know any better. For some reason, to this day the notion of clinical death is still obscure to me.

I've seen more death in romances, friendships, and ambitions than people dying. "Death ends a life, not a relationship." So when I was given the death card this morning, I wasn't frightened. I'm actually relieved because my perception of death is different.

Death

This card is commonly misconstrued and does not specifically pertain to physical death. The Death card signifies change in your life brought about by the ending of a current situation and the beginning of a new one. While the card itself may be morbid, it actually represents exciting change in your life. Be prepared for new and exciting situations to develop.

So this death car signifies change in my life brought about the ending of a current situation and the beginning of a new one. Well considering how my life has been going, that's great. I haven't been sitting around moping about him, but I miss him. I want to return to being comfortable being single. I don't mind being single. But when I found someone I was interested in, that changed. Since it didn't work out, I don't want to miss him.

I'm unemployed and have no financial income. I actually feel unproductive by wasting my time hitting up interviews because it's felt like it hasn't led to anything promising. If anything,it's discouraging. I've been seeking positions I know I can perform but are either perceived as otherwise and even positions I know I can do but require a little more faith, faith I haven't been given. I have two interviews coming up and an amazing job prospect, which really means that hopefully futile interviews and unemployment will die in my current situation. I'm looking forward to the changes!