I Got It Done and Gained Further Perspective

I went to work today, and I faced my manager regarding my resignation letter. I don't know if he intentionally decided to not persuade me otherwise or had some perspective and decided to take a different position. He left me a voicemail, asking me to call him back and talk to him about my resignation. My friend thought that maybe he had a thing for me. No way! Today he seemed understanding about where I'm coming from before I said anything. I've seen him assess people before. So maybe he just realized that trying to convince me to stay would be a losing battle. I walked in there with confidence in my decision and Armen's message in mind. I'm sure that it was evident.

He told me to not feel guilty because it's important that I enjoy where I work. He shared to me his story about quitting after two days at one job. Maybe he was bullshitting when he came off as being understanding. But it doesn't matter. What he said is true. It's important that I enjoy where I work. I may not find that perfect job any time soon, but I don't want to work at a place that makes me feel like I'm compromising who I am.

Working there would require me to compromise my value, tell white lies, manipulate and push customers to make purchases I can feel they are hesitant about, ignoring my gnawing guilt about how this can potentially be financially catastrophic, making myself the higher priority, etc. I feel so much better now that I'm doing this. I was afraid that by doing this I would feel awful until I felt better. Instead someone from school referred me to a stable and generous company that's looking to hire.

He gave me the info the next time I saw him. I received a phone call the next day after I emailed my resume to the company. I also got a second phone call from another company interested in hiring someone for data entry! Both of these jobs are part-time positions, so they'll allow me to go to school at the same time. And they pay well, which would make me financially secure. It's perfect! I mean if I get hired. I'm really excited. I feel like I'm going the right direction.