What causes a person to disconnect completely or so significantly to the point of destruction or the confinement of failure? Okay, so, I’m familiar with the answer for the second part of the question. Sometimes you can feel driven to it. The details to my personal experience I’ll leave out. But I’m still lost on how someone can fabricate and manifest delusional realities to exacerbate an unhappy situation. In extreme cases, there are psychological cycles that are responsible for unfavorable behavioral tendencies. But when it appears to randomly surface in a seemingly rational person who’s problems arise and disappear almost according to convenience, it’s degrading. Sometimes what seems like trivial concerns may be of immense burden to others, but sometimes I find that even in the most unlikely sources, people will resort to falsified medical claims as a desperate attempt to change the circumstance selfishly, rather than face the difficulties in front of them. It saddens me when someone I care for and loves uses such a weak approach, because it poisons that person. And seeing it from someone who I thought I was so connected with and similar to frightens and shocks me. What made this person become like that? How much does this person know on a conscious level? Sometimes, it’s easier for me to believe that it’s all a twisted, manipulative tactic. It disgraceful, but at least then it would be an entirely conscious act. And to a point, I think it is. But I also believe that while this may have began . . . as for the lack of a better word, game, it morphed into a psychologically deranged mentality that’s corrupted her ability to distinguish reality from fiction.
Friday, February 8, 2008
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