A Great Phone Call

I just had a fantastic conversation with my friend. It was nothing special, but it’s been a while. And today didn’t begin very well. I’ve been feeling a little neglected by my friends and isolated from the outside world. A bunch of us had plans to go out early this morning, and the plans were made yesterday. It was fresh in everyone’s mind, and yet nothing happened…until after 2 PM when a bunch of calls rolled in to verify that I’ve been flaked on. Thanks for the confirmation, I guess. It was nothing personal, and I know that, but it’s been raining. My knees have been acting up, and the only wearable shoes I own right now are knee high boots. Factor that in with my lack of funds, and I’m basically stuck home. It wasn’t all bad. I got to catch up on a lot of reading, bake cookies, and educate myself on Reno’s Privacy Act and compare it to California’s. The last one is rather extensive and an ongoing process. Plus I know virtually zero about the law, which makes it kind of a challenge that I like. I just wish I had the choice to stay home, not have my circumstances dictate my plans. I really was planning to call my friend, but I made an excuse about how I need to charge my cell phone. I could have just as easily used my house phone, but I didn’t. I love her, but, lately, her self-defeatist attitude has been making me feel like I need to undergo a spiritual cleansing after each conversation with her. I want to help her, and that’s why I was making an effort. But I wasn’t helping. I don’t want her living life believing that she has no say. But I think she was also desperate to be told that she was right, that something, anything, she had to say was worth listening to, intelligent, and important. I want her to feel that way about herself without seeking for other peoples’ approval. And I want to help her, but not at the expense of passively supporting her demented views. Her deep-seated bleakness and my hardcore stubbornness has been a bad batch lately. Today was different. I can’t remember how long it’s been since I’ve seen her number on my caller ID, let alone a great conversation. So it was nice.